No doubt tht's me

2011-06-17T03:26:00.001+08:00

注意！许多人日夜忙碌不都是要让自己可以存多一些钱吗？可现实社会却将我们的血汗钱给贬值了，即无奈又心酸。

那些努力"花",敢敢"花"納税人的钱,为什么我们不努力"存",敢敢"存"
存在一个既能帮我们扣税,他们又动用不到的储蓄户口呢?

大东方回馈社会之举，在01/06/2011 开放一亿个“ 稳得富 ”单位给我们，让我们可以将财富增值。兴起一股抢购热潮，至今已经成交600个户口，接下来每天有近100宗回成交。所以请大家告诉大家，这个高回酬 + 零风险 + 存五次 + 送保险 + 送信心 + 送安全 + 送安心的储蓄户口真的过了这个村没有第二家了

+ 记得"了解"花的时间不是"钱" +

联络我。012-7048707 （ Ben ）感恩。

I not mature enough to stand alone at the crossroad

2011-05-06T14:13:00.003+08:00

[Scream] I hate U, Benz! Seriously I don't want to be you, HYF anymore!! Can I end the life? [/Scream]

Yup, you're right I was struck in the neck of the bottle and being so emotional right now! You might think am I stupid and feel like scolding to stop me from the act of suicide, but take it easy dude, I just fine. There was how normal that a people bump into dilemma and I was just choose to escape from the reality for a mean while and refuse to do any decision.

The story of the fighting among angel and devil were starting again, but i just be a deaf, not to hear in additional to forget my Ego, shut down my memories, and turn into a total difference people even thought still in the same shell but least can be spare the mind out and no need to think about those complicated relationship that HYF had, those issued that HYF made, those people that HYF knew. Just be a stupid live inside the body and let HYF died for few second or maybe some hours hence nothing much needed a choke up mind or muse over will do.

Yea maybe I'm not mature to stand and fight alone, to face alone, to overcome those difficulties alone, and act like the loser to escape from the reality but I promised will learn, k? There is no one born to know to be tough, all we can do is experience and learn, moreover I still fragile to work on something but a little move may prove I am still brave enough to try and least I was learning. Just give me some time no need to push me to the death way, do us a favour, I can grow myself with your advise but not help, care of me most of the time but not over protect, be nice to me but not mean to be fake with me.

Yea, I am not mature, if compare to others, maybe I am not weak, if compare to others too, but you know what I got improvement and learnt a lot from my past, in short I had growth.Your debate is there I knows, but something is can't denied.

Again, I'm not tried to be immature but I just need some time to muse and figure out what's next for me!

Is just an update of me

2010-08-01T23:15:00.002+08:00

{shout out} My Birthday is coming {/shout out}

It was really surprise me that i had been rotten this blog for so long.

Hmm.... there is no other excuse beside saying "i m busy,k?" but i was really being busy couple of time and some variables were just happened in my life some of my habitual had been mess up but least i found the balance point~ Like now, hehe~

Anyway, my birthday is coming soon.... but i have no any feeling regarding this, maybe this year just crash with the big day among the ghost month or it fall on Monday so that i dint plan to have what celebration as its normal working day should everyone back to work.... the day before people wont be so free come out and entertain me....

So i had prepared and get ready to accept no fabulous celebration of this year, and there is my wishes list as below, just leave your comment tell which can you do for me.

Home make cake (as long as home make not necessary "self-make" cos i dun like sweet)
Buy me a buffet dinner (as long as is buffet, but no junk food buffet k?)
Get me a nice shirt/pant/shoes (anything as long as i can wear and it suit to my style)
A travel trip (Not necessary oversea, but somewhere new, k?)
A giant size of soft toy (cos i want to compete with my sister who got a giant dolphin, but can i have one more request on it, i wan the toy without long fur and it's better fill with cotton)
Bring me along when you picking my present, its wont waste your time to figure out what i need and what suit me ………… :P

Sorry for my loneliness and empty... but i really hope this year will be great and different with past~

i like it very much~

2010-04-20T04:10:00.002+08:00

闭上眼睛默默许个愿就像甜甜圈又甜又圆

　　未来是停不下的冒险却不感觉累

　　是否可以陪伴你们到永远答案由你们来圈

　　不管答案是不是永远注定到永远

　　每次遇到考验都想到放弃当初的梦想

　　不过生活起起落落才会感觉不一样

　　用耐心慢慢等待奇迹才会出现在身旁

　　1 2 3 时钟滴答滴答响来实现这梦想

　　U and Me 循着阳光的路线创照最美时光

　　1 2 3 我们一天一天看星光已在发芽

　　U and Me 有你有我的地方幸福就不缺氧

　　U and Me 有你们爱的奇迹幸福就不缺氧

The words i highlighted in BLUE color is the part i like it most. I ensure u all wouldn't face any difficulties while read or try to translate it by your own, thus hereby was the translation by Benzemine's version

"it will always drive us to give up the initial goal or dream when we face the difficulties, but life is just like that to let us to run through, be patient the miracle will be happened around us!"

Well, that's my version might not suitable but who's care? the most important part is that, are u being slum these few days? Do you did fed up with your life? Be tough, be patient the hardness will pass and you will deserve for the goodness

i was being emotional few days ago, and luckily my friend did share the hard task with me although he is drive me to the death wall and i nearly go mad and throw my temper to him and would like give up all my plan and my entire life, yea i am thinking of suicide since i was being so useless in the old days, but now i am being fine and i do believe the 1 who give up 1st he/she will be the one who lose. Hence i knew i have to be patient with not thinking too much, just do whatever i have to do, do whatever part of my job, that's a gift waiting for me to achieved.

KISS

2010-02-22T03:24:00.002+08:00

[shout out]Happy Chinese New Year to all Hokkien People[/shout out]

KISS - Keep It Simple Stupid~

No doubt kiss, that is an activity i like most during the time with my lover~ being so alone here since i am single for 5 years and craving for love here~ nevertheless i never ever to forgot the word of KISS since it couldn't be an activity for me and do practice it in my life~~ *Smile* i x mean to kiss everyone when i "see" them~ but just mean to Keep all the thing in the simple and logic way as long as it will be harmless among my friends, relatives and also myself~

so please just KISS me k? dun mess the thing up~

CNY

2010-02-16T04:23:00.002+08:00

[shout out] Happy Chinese NEW Year [/shout out]

Hi peeps, how was ur CNY? kinda cool, warm, or bore u been? For me personally i foresee something in my family, we are getting elder as our parents they are getting old too; they might have some friend with their own children whom might same age with us, and just like our local production movie their children are bringing them to travel around and about ourself just stay at this horrible weather country.... to celebrate our CNY.... The weather of the day is getting warmer and warmer, for a simple but true example i may sat on the sofa and not to move but the sweat was wetting my clothes.

In the other hand, our families may not so closer as before since the eldest are not around and we are getting less connection among each other right now hence the situation when we get together might be watch TV show together and gossip in the middle with a simple meal as an ending~ and it might not so happening if compare with passed year~ It may blame to the bad economic but why it just affect to our home? it will be worldwide right? is it true enough to use it as a reason to compare the pass and now? Not really, fair enough to say it might quite bad economic but not affect all people and for those who run for the traditional business especially it is a family business it might be affected since you are working with your relatives some of the conflict might mix in the mid of the working days so when the festivals or any special events like now we might force to be get together and force to wearing up the mask and act as the fake man or women~ sigh~ i really believe in the phrase we used in Chinese "once the problem can be solved with money it doesnt matter at all" so why i get to so bore in dis 2 days just because i yet to be so hardworking as other people do and i yet to achieve the high wealth to let my parents enjoy their life right now~

So, dont ask about any wishes to me for this year? it will be a true way if you want to help me up please buy insurance from me and do intro some friends to me!

Remember, insurance company wont take your money to give us but they will really lift you a hand when u need some help within your financial problem, so it is a win-win situation~ for further more information i will do some details in my next post~

I need HELP

2010-01-16T03:17:00.002+08:00

[shout out 1]Who know HTML/Java/RSS scripts well [/shout out 1]

Yeee....yup~ As my shout out up there, i need an expert to teach me how to write a script to run for the webpages. That's a bit regret i not learnt it well when i was in University. Hopes that someone else will do me a favor to teach me how to mastering all of it and also i yet to be so stupid and enough effort to learn and skill it up.

drop me a message if you saw it and you may give me the offer!

[shout out 2] I am 22 years old i would like to learn how to play piano [/shout out 2]

Er....hmm~ I would like to learn how play it, maybe you will laugh it loud when it come to you in your first sight but that is my dream i hopes, i can make it real. Ya, maybe your concerns are right i am too old for learning these especially its need a pair of fingers that very nimble and maybe i don't have but i try.

Nothing is impossible if you put an effort; practice make prefect! And i believe that i can!

So.... If you know anyone good in teaching and don't mind how old i am please don't keep but introduce to me o~

Random

2010-01-15T20:07:00.007+08:00

[Question]Hi dudes, how ya doing recently?[/Question ]

Being asked this question frequently by my friends since i was just quit from the social media except blogs and they cant even catch up with me for a tea session for a long time~ Not cause of any job that i cant slot out the time to meet them up but just busy with my own things and tried to started my own career with my best friends.

No doubt i am old enough and i admitted/ agreed with my mum that if i got a proper job and stabilized my incomes and expenses i might able to marriage and have a happy family however i don't even attached with any girl yet. Being so alone since 2006 i was craving for a lover very much but i not dare to make a step out even though there have some for me.

Make a finger cross i hopes there is an one and only may match to me for my entire life time. At the same time there are some wishes/goals in this year i would like to achieve and it must not to let go and make myself regret again~~

(1) Get a better income * idealistic RM 3,000 per month*

(2) ZERO debts no matter PTPTN Loan, Car Loan, Credit Card, & etc

(3) Get a better car *For your info i did purchase a used car for myself hence i hope may get my dream car HONDA CITY before the end of this year*

(4) Be able to bring my families travel around *not domestic*

(5) Be able to buy and live with style and without any financial problem

(6) *last but not least* I hopes i may get more attractive to hook the one who love me and i do; and get know more friends to expand my network.

Anyway, there are the goals set for me to achieve in this year. And a rules that i will not forget may all the readers do, keep healthy and live with smile~ happy always~

The ReCent Me

2009-12-07T11:40:00.004+08:00

[short update]I just finished my freelance job in PJ two days ago[/short update]

I was back to PJ for work defernately i will very focus and look into was it worth to come in turn of stopping my insurance career in the mean time...

Anyway, i will be JB again tomorrow so... if you somewhere round there please dont feel hesitate to leave me a call lo!

Wat M i doin rite now~~

2009-11-14T22:42:00.002+08:00

{short update} I'm now in JB {short update}

Yaya, no doubt i quit for the job that's why i'm now in JB. Maybe u might think about i am a loser just because i quit the job instead of over heal my languages to stay there longer, but i just want to declare something out, first i went for interview just because the information i got was the company needs the employee to work for the marketing works urgently; and they need short term employee who just need to work for 1 month, and the marketer does not necessary to own a car just base on the job scope normally the "freshman" just need to make some phone calls and stay in office do some paper works, and there is a RM 200 allowance to treat as the pocket money to him in the first month.

After interviewed, I was been confirmed by the company in the same day. As the above, some amendment hereby, I will be consider the normal employee who is in the 3 months probation with basic salary and RM 200 allowance. I got the culture shock after entered the company for sure just because of my poor English, maybe i have a big tongue i could not pronounce those word clearly and my English writing will make those "self-thought" British man or girl mad. So i would rather think twice or forth before i speak it out from my stupid mouth to avoid their teases.

Well, the one month story was not that fun to make a post here, what i want to announce is the RM 200 allowance i was not able to take any single cent. Just because of i have no car, if i claim for the allowance is not fair to the people who lend me the car and not fair to company as well, so if i treat the people who borrowed the car to me fairly i could not take the allowance, but there is RM 100 for phone allowance what? What about my phone charges? Do you think i use office's phone to make calls in weekends to confirm the appointment on the following Monday? Idiot knows impossible right? Thus, why am i disqualified to take the rest of RM 100?

Anyway, there's not a bull shit and i not tend to make it big here, i just want spoke up my mind here!! And now i rot in my house, JB if u read my post don't hesitate to call me out k?

i m back

2009-09-09T23:39:00.002+08:00

[short update] I got a job [/short update]

yup, i got a job, but dunno y i not really happy with that not about the salary is not high, but the environment.
yes, i admit that i need a job and it will be great in turn of jobless and stay at home, but i was not very enjoy to work in the office, the environment factor is not because of the pets will be around (my bosses will bring them to office often) that just my own problem i cant make myself fit into the environment, even to communicate with them i will feel very shy n anxiety so i would rather not to talk, peeps i not the people that shy to talk but speak in english i mean a proper english without any grammar mistake. i know what i wrote here might contain tons of the mistake and u, u, and u may laugh me loud in front of the PC, but i dun care cos i dint see it~ and even know it!
I am f**king no confident to speak to them as their language is so good in compare to me!
so i am choose to resign! yes i want to quit! sorry not i dun wan face the difficulties, i jz wan to bear me from the company and release some stress~

My birthday coming soon~~

2009-08-10T17:52:00.002+08:00

dudes, my birthday coming soon la~~

but i not meant to want anything from u all, but at least buy me for a simple meal or just lift me a call to greet me well~

At least let me know that i am still existing in your heart~

No wishes list for this year, because what i want now, is a properly job, a car at least can bring me to anywhere and convenience to me for my job. And the most important part is clear my current debts and finished my study in this semester.

10 days

2009-06-10T13:48:00.002+08:00

Hi my loyal reader, panda 10 days ago i said i would tried my very best to fulfill my insurance quota but first, second and the third day i was spent it with my secondary school scout troop 50th anniversary. Then the following day, my dearest fren come and visit me from KL. Yup, bring him around is necessary. Hence, another 4 days past as i m a good tour guide!! After that, i was roting in my house for 2 days as i cant get any appointment with my prospect but the basic gathering with my brother was still.

Today is the 10th day, sigh..... ask me how to do~~

What am i doing??

2009-06-01T11:18:00.003+08:00

I am lost again, guess so right? else i wont be so free and blogging here... Our batch going to graduate soon, but seems that i yet to qualify the title. In the recent years ago i choose to spend about 29K for a degree course, 3 years later i am yet to qualify the holder, i got 4 D *not magnum* in my result, defernately the result will affect lot~~ but what to do that's the way i choose...

MSN chat with wil last night, "are u manage to grad in this coming convocation?" i replied that "can kua~~" *mean i not confidence to spoke it out* I really dont know how is the result that i scored. I dont even know that am i able to slot into the third class or not. I choose to reject Halo Music, since they offered me not consider high paid, but do u know that is a good price and stepping stone for a third class degree qualifier to accept it~~~

One of my insurance client asked me last night, "Do you shift to full time with your insurance career?" I just smile then bounch to another topic quickly.

1st of June, I give a chance to myself to complete my commitment and quota of my insurance career. One month, I promise to myself i will work harder, do whatever i can do, as i tend to continue my PR life in the future.

WELL, this might not a good article and contains with tons of the grammar mistake just leave comment if you can help me up

=.=

2009-04-22T16:17:00.002+08:00

sigh.... gonna grad from my uni soon, kinda lost and cant even let everything go just bcos i gonna grad~~~
panda, where are u?? i felt that gap between u and me became bigger...
dun u wan to heal it??

^^ part 2

2009-04-01T17:15:00.004+08:00

Here we head to a water fall which locate somewhere near rawang.... ssssorry, for my bad memory i cant recall how to named it~~ For more info can ask my friends ya! (if u know them)

Get lessen to get exercise like this, since i am away from the scouting world for so long~~ My bone is getting age, my tummy is getting bigger... No doubt i put on much weight~~

At the same day, after we took our dinner, we off to Genting Highland just for a tea~~~ *wat a crazy ppl do*

i think these are the things, i would like to share to u all; however i had go to A mei concert but i hv none of the picture of it, since i sit so far away from the stage.... so these are the short update among me lo~~

anyth refer back to the another blog la~~

^^ i almost forget ^^ part 1

2009-03-30T18:21:00.007+08:00

Sorry my reader(s) there, if u keep waiting my newest entry here. It was being busy recently but not only assignment and FYP, and also the more and more outing I been. *sorry my English yet to improved its still broken*

ern.... think wat to mention first~~~ hmm... okie, I'm sure i not sharing with you that i was went to Genting for the Wah Lai Toi TV award n My Astro Music Concert before. yeah~~ i got some ticket from Alex, TenQ Alex!! It's seem to be bore most the time as there was only a ceremony to giving out the prize to the artists but its not truth, as the emceeses are so humour it make me really enjoy to the show.

Beside the concert, most of the time we are killing the handphone's memory and the camera too~~ *it's time to take photo* Can u believe that we had taken round 180 pcs of the photos a night?? Kinda over right!? Hehe, the picture beside shown 4 of us! 2 handsomes and 2 beauties; perfect match~~~ but how the way to match, imagine urself la~~ lolz

And therer some sweet moment during this perior of i not updating my blog~~ *sweet* We're having an old man birthday celebration whereby he had 2 sons and 2 daugthers and 1 grandson to be the representative. And also cant without me la, as i am his brother mah~~

See the old man in black~~ The picture of so harmony~~~ yee~~~ *lovely lor*

Apart from that, i was joining the promotion of the Guinness St Patrick day last year, and this year i was coin to join the party as i and my friend having dinner at the BBQ plaza@ 1U~~~ yeah! It's look great that last year~~ huhu

There were many functions up there, if you feel interested dun miss out for the following year lo! *smile*

What is the day today?

2009-02-14T13:36:00.002+08:00

Kinda emo for the day comes.... Dunno why dis was the year i emo most; Mayb that i m getting older.... Mayb i m too desperate since i am being single and available for 3 years. uh-arh... i hate the day of today la!!!

我知道伤心不能改变什么

那么让我诚实一点

诚实

难免有不能控制的宣泄

只要关上了门不必理谁

一个人坐在空荡包厢里面

手机让它休息一夜

难~~~

像切歌切掉回忆的画面

眼泪不能不能流过十二点

情人节快乐我对自己说

套餐点了寂寞亮了情人节快乐

泪也融了我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切

还爱你带一点恨还要时间

才能平衡热恋伤痕幻灭重生

祝我情人节快乐

Do u notice tht

2009-02-09T02:08:00.003+08:00

yea, do u notice tht i had change the blog title...
sorry as i dint follow as wat i promise last time(bloging at least twice a week)....
but i was kinda frustration to typing out my feeling within these holidays....
i am kinda lost no matter with the career or my studies or my daily life....
i'm not even ready to take noted with my expression, my mind was keep floating....

i hate every single happen in Chinese New Year beside receiving ang pao~~ i might make u curious on y i hate it so much~~ well no other reasons juz bcos i dont like.... i dont like to being question like y u still single?? when u grad?? what do u plan for after grad?? do u think u look fatter than last year?? and etc....

And then, the other things i sick with was the reunion dinner or lunch. That will be the most headache matter on earth.... U might get to wait and wait all the ppl get back den only can start to eat.... beside the waiting period, u might take a long line in the market and purchase tons of the food and freeze in the fridge and still worries not enough to serving the demand... to defrozen it and prepare to cook.... after it all there will be no one appreciated and some of them even complaint that taste being so... aw...

wat the human being nowadays.... can be more thankful to the ppl who make effort onot?
dun b so selflish ok onot... frustrate with it~~~

The first entry of 2009

2009-01-02T03:27:00.002+08:00

This was the first entry in 2009, i was not going to tell that what I plan and what do i aiming for but there is some short update of me after the stage play: The Fallen Utopia.

I was shifted out from palm spring since this morning. And now is very late in the night but I am just awake not because of I am not sleepy but I was keep annoying by those mosquitoes. I cant denied that I was very enjoy the moment when I was living in palm spring, since there was a good place; such like the beautiful night view of the Bandar Utama can be seen was just out from my room's window. And then the good and clean environment without any mosquitoes, bigger spaces, and the facilities just like what the other condo will do. It's really impress me a lot. Instead of staying here, my room was a partition room and here was no any good view out from my window for sure and here was not consider clean and good environment to me however I was keep work hard to make it better than before in this afternoon with Jennifer.

And then there is a part to make me headache and cant stand for it, since there are tons of the “blood suck” machines are waiting for sucking me!! OMG~~ this is totally drive me mad!!! Then now I am thinking of shifting out from here, and I would rather to trouble myself and my friends again instead of the ruin of what I have now.

I known the environment among this area well since i was the resident at here for 1 year before i shift to palm spring too~~~ but i kinda..... with this la~~
Friends, please leave your comments here i would like to heard something new form you, you, and you!!

Short Update~~~

2008-12-24T03:56:00.003+08:00

I was kinda busy for this few weeks hence my blog was almost rotting here....

Well, I just after my final exam of Y3S2.... and just attended my junior's farewell camp in Johor... and busy in scouting sponsor.... and keep my mind clear and sensitive to the media monitoring and the press release, roadshows and so on..... and pack my stuff as i gonna move out from Palm Spring....

Anyway there is 1 day to go then might be X'mas... Merry X'mas to all my readers and friends!!!

And then there are 2 days to go then might be our production, The Fallen Utopia's official screening!!!

And then there are 3 days to go then might be our production, The Fallen Utopia's Show time!!!

So, friend hereby were the things i busy in~~

Hey anyone of u want to watch the show but not yet buy the ticket can buy from me ya~~~

P/s: rmb the profit of it will directly go for the charity hence if u cant turn up but willing to donate oso can contact me ya~~~

Give up UEC!!

2008-12-13T20:50:00.001+08:00

shooting and editing by my junior in FYHS

dunno wat's goin wrong with them??

The Fallen Utopia

2008-11-25T01:01:00.003+08:00

Presented by the Oh-Beh-Gong Drama Studio (OBGS).

The Fallen Utopia is set in the year 2038, the world is facing challenges beyond what we have at present; our once fertile lands are turning into deserts; natural resources are scarce, the human race is dying out…

The main objective of this production is to deliver a message - through this production, we hope to be able to educate the audience. This drama featured all kinds of pollution, wars, and the fall of mankind. Our actions today will affect our future, our planet, and the coming generation. Thus, we hope to instill a sense of urgency, and to give the audience a variety of thoughts to ponder upon.

Our production is absolutely non-profit: every performer and crew member is not receiving any monetary benefits. Our achievement is the best reward we can receive. We look forward to making contributions to Pusat Penjagaan Kanak-Kanak Cacat Taman Megah; all profit from the ticket sales will go to charity.

Details are as below:
Venue : Auditorium Taman Budaya
Date : 27 December 2008 (Saturday) till 28 December 2008 (Sunday)
Time : 3pm (first session) & 8pm (second session)
Targeted Audience : PublicEntrance Fee : RM 25
*special offer for student, group purchases and senior citizen

If you are interested or have any queries, please contact Alvin Lim at 012- 798 5659. You may also log into the official website for more information.

7-11

2008-11-20T01:08:00.002+08:00

look at the title what is the first impression comes to you?? A 7-11 convenience shop??? Nope, for me that was a symbol to me for remember something and somebody....

It were lots of the meaning to me...

there is a birthday for my good friend, he is a nice guy~~

there is a birthday for my best friend' ex-BF birthday~~

there was an anniversary of another 1 of my best friend with her ex-BF~~

there was a day i break up with my last GF~~

yea... in year 2006, 10 July i was overnight at Jo house as in we're rushing our assignment and mid-term on the other day; that was a night i hardly to forget... I was text to her in that mid night; as i remembered i was stated in the mesej with "i choose back to the stage of friend, wishes you happy of broke up(fei shuo kuai le)".... Of cos i was acting nothing to me in front of Jo and Juan.... And we're carry on our stuff~~ the next day, 11 July after school we were going to sing K... We're addict with the entertainment until now too~~ The image was still clear in my mind, it's time to Jo to move as her BF(now is ex) birthday while Juan also as that day was she and her BF (ex now) anniversary day... They're leave and there only left 4 (included me) in the room... And that was kinda good timing for my favourite song (leaf "ye zi") turn up.... Then we just sang the song lo, but then tiong was found that i was out of pitch and there was tearing out from my eyes... yea man i was cried when i sang the song it enough to recall me the story between me and she....

In year 2007, July I was just after my first drama stage play in UTAR. And i was handling the position of Deco Manager of the Ball nite'07 too.... I remembered that was a "J" girl did make me fall on her that time; but it was kinda impossible as she had a very stable BF that time... And I and my fellows friends just excuse that I was get into the character too deeply, it may take some time and i will back to the normal again... Not that long, i did find out that there was another "J" girl approach to me.. She is pretty good from that time till now cant denied that... but it's kinda not fair if i get start with her and i was not really put down the other girl.... But then i was have a secret and i really did a wrong choice in that perior~~ And that day in coincidentally was fall on 11 July....

In year 2008, yea means this year... i was preparing my Fashion Nite'08.... And there is a general meeting on that day~~~

7-11
means what to u??

i gonna move~~~

2008-11-10T00:55:00.002+08:00

Ya... is time to move out~~
our contract gonna meet already~~~
is time to get move, edmond was move to alvin's there already and i just insist to stay here longer~~~ Here, nothing bad to me but the transportation.... Well, i will treasure the days left with me~~~

i'm not looking good anymore~~

2008-10-28T15:09:00.003+08:00

As you all know right, i kinda addict with self portrait via camera or my multiple function handphone~~ But i do found i m not that good looking with it already.... Kinda sad of it when i look through photos and felt that I'm not photo genuine anymore~~

Sob~~

Recently, i even not dare to take picture myself... As I gain a lot of fat... My face getting round and round even can out of focus from the frame... And a bad hairstyle.... awful bodyline.... Kinda suck and i would like to end of my life seriously~~~ I need a people to spent more money on me to make me over~~~ Back to the baby skin face, fit body, fashionable hair~~~ *sob sob*

It is kinda sad when i look through those promo video about the OBGDS... I am the "geli-est" man in the video clip its totally can spoil the whole image.....

aw~~~ I hate it~~~ i hate myself~~~

T.T

I'm under porbation~~~

2008-10-22T20:44:00.003+08:00

Yea.... The result is get released today....
I was only scored 1.944 of it.... means that i will be affected by the financial problems for my coming semester... Since the gpa was this low i was hard to get the PTPTN loan....
T.T nothing that i can blame and regret....
because i choose to not resit for my grade D subject.....

sob sob~~~

i'm sorry

2008-10-19T17:04:00.000+08:00

I was going to the charity house, ppkkctm with OBGDS fellow friends yesterday~~
As we planed we were going to show our kindness and share our joyful to them though we sang and some games.... And we did prepare the prizes and souvenir to the children and the "children home" but it was force to change due to the environmental problems I didn't prepare a plan B as we cant control the situation.... Some more they just a child, have to be quiet and sit properly, listen to us and follow our instructions is quite impossible to those normal children like us even though are them???

Hence we are lost the track at the beginning but then we just pull the way back to us as we patient enough and have a good heart...
What am i contribute there, as i have a bit fear of???
I was sang songs together with my fellow friends, and took photo/video for them, but then i was try to talk to the children also but i just too scared bout they will harm me not... So, i just talk with that boy who sat and tied at the door there, and he was hinted me to hug him and release the rope however he cant talk, but i was still smart i go ask around bout the cases of him, as the worker told me that he was unable to control himself he will run away from the house and hard to catch him back if they release him; "he was unable to stand so being tied up at there" this statement was another worker told Raymond... Seems like two different stories.... *Curious*

Zzzz... I am sorry that i not put much afford to play with the children as i just keep check with my watch and chase my friends to take moves.... i'm sorry if i make u think of i am that kindless...

M i a flirting king???

2008-10-13T01:47:00.001+08:00

i just feel like sorry if i do so~~~

I'm the people who might flirt with his good/best friends, but not the lover/potential lover/the people like me~~ i just cant afford with the impact after it.... for the third 1, i will worries bout sending the wrong signal to the encoder... second, i will worries the people don't really like this kind of me!!! And the last, i am prefer to be the listener and will do more action to show i sayang her rather that flirt with her only lo~~~

Jenn, u make me sick of it~~~

2008-10-07T23:23:00.000+08:00

Start time: 11:11pm, 7 Oct 2008

Name: Ben

Sisters: 1, excluded those wives’

Brothers: lots, but not biological

Shoe size: 7-8 depend on the cutting

Height: 170cm

Where do you live: currently in Kota Damansara, PJ

Favourite drinks: Strawberry milkshake, Starbucks Vanilla cream

Favourite breakfast: sorry~~ I used to “brunch”

Have you everBeen on a plane: Yes

Swam in the ocean: nope

Fallen asleep at school: quite often~~ *shy shy*

Fell off your chair: as I remember nope

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: I will call instead to wait!!!

Saved emails: Yes

What is your room like: Err…. Boy’s room lo~~

What’s right beside you: lots, watch, mobile phone, CDs……

What is the last thing you ate: chocolate bar

Ever had
Chicken pox: Yes. Luckily no scars live with me now. *HAHA*
Sore throat: Yes
Stitches: Nope
Broken nose: Nope
Do you Believe in love at first sight: Nope.
Like picnics: Feel like had once in London last time~~
Who was, were The last person you danced with: Err… Mindy o Charine, Either 1 lo~~
Last person who made you smile: Edmond, no way to defense his lame
You last yelled at: Neway’s Mic

Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: Yes, my friends!!!
Kissed anyone: Nope
Get sick: Jenn, u make me sick wit it!!!
Miss someone: My mummy!!!
Eat: Yes. I’m not on diet =.=”

Best feeling in the world: hugging by the person I love

Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Nope

What’s under your bed: Nothing

Who do you really hate: err... people who break his/her promise without any reasons…

Time is it now: 10.56pm (is it remind me to sleep??)

Random:
Is there a person who is on your mind now: Nope!!!
Do you have any siblings: Yes
Do you want children: Yes
Do you smile often: Don’t know~~
Do you like your hand-writing: Depend on my mood~~
Are your toe nails painted: Halo~~ I am a boy!!
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: ……..
What color shirt are you wearing now: White
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: Meeting with Alvin and Edmond
When did you cry last: When watching the movie “Money not enough 2”
Are you a friendly person: Depend on my mood, the situation and the people….
Do you have any pets: Nope~~
Where is the person you have feelings for right now? *lame*
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now: I ever forget who is the one….
Do you sleep with the TV on?: Yes! I did
Have you ever crawled through a window?: What for???
Can you handle the truth?: Don’t know, anything you want to expose to me??
Are you too forgiving?: I quite petty and stubborn in sometimes…..
Are you closer to your mother or father?: Mother
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: lots, since I cried in cinema~~~
How many people can you say you’ve really loved?: My families and friends
Do you eat healthy?: Not really~~~
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: What is the point of dispose it??
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: Yes
If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: Mr. Blog
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: Don’t know…. But I would like to heard form u~~~
Are you confident?: Sometimes

3 things I was doing 10 years ago:

Sleep before 11 pm
Tuition and tuition and tuition….
Cycle with my buddy

snacks I enjoy:

Oreo
McD Sundae Chocolate
Mcflurry
Snuker chocolate bar

3 of my bad habits:

lazy,
emotional,
talkative

3 places I have lived in:

JB….
Penang…..
PJ (currently)

5 people I tag:

Whoever
Want
To
Reply
!!!!!!!!!!!

WonDerinG

2008-10-03T03:02:00.000+08:00

Jz read few blogs of my friends....
Kinda despair to somebody~~~
why the people like to judge the other before they look into the issue??? Are they have no brain?? Or they not really treat other as friend??? For me, as a friend you could actually voice out if you see/percieve something going wrong or worst, but you may not to but please don't saying bad in behind, what the hack you're doing there???
Is kinda hurt and push the friendship to the end....

By the way, i still appreaciate that i have a good brother to care for me and lift a hand to me when i needed... Through the middleman and some channel get known that he might not be so happy lately, but i truly from my heart to greet him well and great!!!

And you, thank for keep tracking my entry ya~~~ but no need to bother bout the grammar and the sentense structure la, it is a hard task... it will make u vomit tons of blood.....
lolx

sorry kinda sad and emo now~~

i hv a D in my exam

2008-10-02T02:54:00.000+08:00

The result was released last night~
There is a present for the Hari Raya to me....
Ya, i hv a grade D in my crisis management....
sit for the paper ont? it really a tough question to me.....
Aw~~~ I need help~~~
(financial help)

Wuwuwu T.T uwuwuW

2008-09-26T01:33:00.000+08:00

~~~i have not enough time to live in JB~~~
i have been here around 4 days already...
it's kinda relax at here as the living style and tempo here is more "relaxing" & "slower" than PJ
and here is gang of buddy to chit n chat wif me, hang out wif me...
Somemore here is home sweet home...
LoLx

but there is lot of works are waiting for me, which is enough to stress me up again~~~
Like the lit. review of my FYP, the task of the OBGS, and the part-time jobs also(else my financial might break down)
wuwuwu.... can i stay at here more longer???
i would like to spent my life time at here instead to face the tasks alone, although there are friends a lot there also but its kinda lacking with the feeling of "home"(the word "home" here is more suit to the chinese word "gui su gan")

Aw-yah.... i have no enough time to stay at here la~~~
Beh-Song !!!

"MoonLight" Party @.@"

2008-09-12T00:54:00.000+08:00

As you know the mid-autumn festival is getting more closer...
what we will do in usual??? Buy mooncake, a "branded" chinese tea, lantern, and etc. and then all the family members will sit together chit-chat under the moonlight right? For me, there is quite special for this year.... I did go and buy those things that what i mentioned with Myers just now.... I quite wonder why will they choose today as the celebration day and Alex as well, for syok?? maybe... Avoid crash with the exam day??? possible too... but whatever la, we were having a moonlight party just now~~~
We held the party at the shelter beside the pool... We did light up the canddle of the lantern and use it to decorate the inner of the shelter, beside that foods also been well-prepared by us... mooncake, BBQ chicken wings, sate and chinese tea... As we plan, we estimated 15 peoples will be attend the party but end up only 6 peoples which are the resident of Palm Spring onlu kinda "syok sendiri" at there.... lolx
This might be the first year that I am not back to my hometown and celebrate with my family due to the examinations.... But glad to said that i have them to fill up the empty.... lolx

*sorry for the broken language

Feel bored~~~

2008-09-08T13:00:00.000+08:00

Just took my exam paper at this morning....
i didnt pay much affort on this exam actually....
I was keep doing my freelance job and play around there....
I nearly forgot that i am still a uni students i gonna work hard with my studies and well prepare for my exam paper... Things had mess me up recently kinda lost that i never ever met for...

There are too much of things i gonna take care of... but i not the superman i cant do multi-tasking n make all those things well....
i need a deep breath, i need some1 to show his/her caring to me, i wanna spend alot of the money that i no need to worries the bill come....

uh-wah..... kinda bull shit............