As you all know right, i kinda addict with self portrait via camera or my multiple function handphone~~ But i do found i m not that good looking with it already.... Kinda sad of it when i look through photos and felt that I'm not photo genuine anymore~~
Sob~~
Recently, i even not dare to take picture myself... As I gain a lot of fat... My face getting round and round even can out of focus from the frame... And a bad hairstyle.... awful bodyline.... Kinda suck and i would like to end of my life seriously~~~ I need a people to spent more money on me to make me over~~~ Back to the baby skin face, fit body, fashionable hair~~~ *sob sob*
It is kinda sad when i look through those promo video about the OBGDS... I am the "geli-est" man in the video clip its totally can spoil the whole image.....
aw~~~ I hate it~~~ i hate myself~~~
T.T
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
I'm under porbation~~~
Yea.... The result is get released today....
I was only scored 1.944 of it.... means that i will be affected by the financial problems for my coming semester... Since the gpa was this low i was hard to get the PTPTN loan....
T.T nothing that i can blame and regret....
because i choose to not resit for my grade D subject.....
sob sob~~~
I was only scored 1.944 of it.... means that i will be affected by the financial problems for my coming semester... Since the gpa was this low i was hard to get the PTPTN loan....
T.T nothing that i can blame and regret....
because i choose to not resit for my grade D subject.....
sob sob~~~
Sunday, October 19, 2008
i'm sorry
I was going to the charity house, ppkkctm with OBGDS fellow friends yesterday~~
As we planed we were going to show our kindness and share our joyful to them though we sang and some games.... And we did prepare the prizes and souvenir to the children and the "children home" but it was force to change due to the environmental problems I didn't prepare a plan B as we cant control the situation.... Some more they just a child, have to be quiet and sit properly, listen to us and follow our instructions is quite impossible to those normal children like us even though are them???
Hence we are lost the track at the beginning but then we just pull the way back to us as we patient enough and have a good heart...
What am i contribute there, as i have a bit fear of???
I was sang songs together with my fellow friends, and took photo/video for them, but then i was try to talk to the children also but i just too scared bout they will harm me not... So, i just talk with that boy who sat and tied at the door there, and he was hinted me to hug him and release the rope however he cant talk, but i was still smart i go ask around bout the cases of him, as the worker told me that he was unable to control himself he will run away from the house and hard to catch him back if they release him; "he was unable to stand so being tied up at there" this statement was another worker told Raymond... Seems like two different stories.... *Curious*
Zzzz... I am sorry that i not put much afford to play with the children as i just keep check with my watch and chase my friends to take moves.... i'm sorry if i make u think of i am that kindless...
As we planed we were going to show our kindness and share our joyful to them though we sang and some games.... And we did prepare the prizes and souvenir to the children and the "children home" but it was force to change due to the environmental problems I didn't prepare a plan B as we cant control the situation.... Some more they just a child, have to be quiet and sit properly, listen to us and follow our instructions is quite impossible to those normal children like us even though are them???
Hence we are lost the track at the beginning but then we just pull the way back to us as we patient enough and have a good heart...
What am i contribute there, as i have a bit fear of???
I was sang songs together with my fellow friends, and took photo/video for them, but then i was try to talk to the children also but i just too scared bout they will harm me not... So, i just talk with that boy who sat and tied at the door there, and he was hinted me to hug him and release the rope however he cant talk, but i was still smart i go ask around bout the cases of him, as the worker told me that he was unable to control himself he will run away from the house and hard to catch him back if they release him; "he was unable to stand so being tied up at there" this statement was another worker told Raymond... Seems like two different stories.... *Curious*
Zzzz... I am sorry that i not put much afford to play with the children as i just keep check with my watch and chase my friends to take moves.... i'm sorry if i make u think of i am that kindless...
Monday, October 13, 2008
M i a flirting king???
i just feel like sorry if i do so~~~
I'm the people who might flirt with his good/best friends, but not the lover/potential lover/the people like me~~ i just cant afford with the impact after it.... for the third 1, i will worries bout sending the wrong signal to the encoder... second, i will worries the people don't really like this kind of me!!! And the last, i am prefer to be the listener and will do more action to show i sayang her rather that flirt with her only lo~~~
I'm the people who might flirt with his good/best friends, but not the lover/potential lover/the people like me~~ i just cant afford with the impact after it.... for the third 1, i will worries bout sending the wrong signal to the encoder... second, i will worries the people don't really like this kind of me!!! And the last, i am prefer to be the listener and will do more action to show i sayang her rather that flirt with her only lo~~~
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Jenn, u make me sick of it~~~
Start time: 11:11pm, 7 Oct 2008
Name: Ben
Sisters: 1, excluded those wives’
Brothers: lots, but not biological
Shoe size: 7-8 depend on the cutting
Height: 170cm
Where do you live: currently in Kota Damansara, PJ
Favourite drinks: Strawberry milkshake, Starbucks Vanilla cream
Favourite breakfast: sorry~~ I used to “brunch”
Have you everBeen on a plane: Yes
Swam in the ocean: nope
Fallen asleep at school: quite often~~ *shy shy*
Fell off your chair: as I remember nope
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: I will call instead to wait!!!
Saved emails: Yes
What is your room like: Err…. Boy’s room lo~~
What’s right beside you: lots, watch, mobile phone, CDs……
What is the last thing you ate: chocolate bar
Ever had
Chicken pox: Yes. Luckily no scars live with me now. *HAHA*
Sore throat: Yes
Stitches: Nope
Broken nose: Nope
Do you Believe in love at first sight: Nope.
Like picnics: Feel like had once in London last time~~
Who was, were The last person you danced with: Err… Mindy o Charine, Either 1 lo~~
Last person who made you smile: Edmond, no way to defense his lame
You last yelled at: Neway’s Mic
Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: Yes, my friends!!!
Kissed anyone: Nope
Get sick: Jenn, u make me sick wit it!!!
Miss someone: My mummy!!!
Eat: Yes. I’m not on diet =.=”
Best feeling in the world: hugging by the person I love
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Nope
What’s under your bed: Nothing
Who do you really hate: err... people who break his/her promise without any reasons…
Time is it now: 10.56pm (is it remind me to sleep??)
Random:
Is there a person who is on your mind now: Nope!!!
Do you have any siblings: Yes
Do you want children: Yes
Do you smile often: Don’t know~~
Do you like your hand-writing: Depend on my mood~~
Are your toe nails painted: Halo~~ I am a boy!!
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: ……..
What color shirt are you wearing now: White
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: Meeting with Alvin and Edmond
When did you cry last: When watching the movie “Money not enough 2”
Are you a friendly person: Depend on my mood, the situation and the people….
Do you have any pets: Nope~~
Where is the person you have feelings for right now? *lame*
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now: I ever forget who is the one….
Do you sleep with the TV on?: Yes! I did
Have you ever crawled through a window?: What for???
Can you handle the truth?: Don’t know, anything you want to expose to me??
Are you too forgiving?: I quite petty and stubborn in sometimes…..
Are you closer to your mother or father?: Mother
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: lots, since I cried in cinema~~~
How many people can you say you’ve really loved?: My families and friends
Do you eat healthy?: Not really~~~
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: What is the point of dispose it??
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: Yes
If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: Mr. Blog
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: Don’t know…. But I would like to heard form u~~~
Are you confident?: Sometimes
3 things I was doing 10 years ago:
Name: Ben
Sisters: 1, excluded those wives’
Brothers: lots, but not biological
Shoe size: 7-8 depend on the cutting
Height: 170cm
Where do you live: currently in Kota Damansara, PJ
Favourite drinks: Strawberry milkshake, Starbucks Vanilla cream
Favourite breakfast: sorry~~ I used to “brunch”
Have you everBeen on a plane: Yes
Swam in the ocean: nope
Fallen asleep at school: quite often~~ *shy shy*
Fell off your chair: as I remember nope
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: I will call instead to wait!!!
Saved emails: Yes
What is your room like: Err…. Boy’s room lo~~
What’s right beside you: lots, watch, mobile phone, CDs……
What is the last thing you ate: chocolate bar
Ever had
Chicken pox: Yes. Luckily no scars live with me now. *HAHA*
Sore throat: Yes
Stitches: Nope
Broken nose: Nope
Do you Believe in love at first sight: Nope.
Like picnics: Feel like had once in London last time~~
Who was, were The last person you danced with: Err… Mindy o Charine, Either 1 lo~~
Last person who made you smile: Edmond, no way to defense his lame
You last yelled at: Neway’s Mic
Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: Yes, my friends!!!
Kissed anyone: Nope
Get sick: Jenn, u make me sick wit it!!!
Miss someone: My mummy!!!
Eat: Yes. I’m not on diet =.=”
Best feeling in the world: hugging by the person I love
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Nope
What’s under your bed: Nothing
Who do you really hate: err... people who break his/her promise without any reasons…
Time is it now: 10.56pm (is it remind me to sleep??)
Random:
Is there a person who is on your mind now: Nope!!!
Do you have any siblings: Yes
Do you want children: Yes
Do you smile often: Don’t know~~
Do you like your hand-writing: Depend on my mood~~
Are your toe nails painted: Halo~~ I am a boy!!
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: ……..
What color shirt are you wearing now: White
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: Meeting with Alvin and Edmond
When did you cry last: When watching the movie “Money not enough 2”
Are you a friendly person: Depend on my mood, the situation and the people….
Do you have any pets: Nope~~
Where is the person you have feelings for right now? *lame*
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now: I ever forget who is the one….
Do you sleep with the TV on?: Yes! I did
Have you ever crawled through a window?: What for???
Can you handle the truth?: Don’t know, anything you want to expose to me??
Are you too forgiving?: I quite petty and stubborn in sometimes…..
Are you closer to your mother or father?: Mother
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: lots, since I cried in cinema~~~
How many people can you say you’ve really loved?: My families and friends
Do you eat healthy?: Not really~~~
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: What is the point of dispose it??
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: Yes
If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: Mr. Blog
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: Don’t know…. But I would like to heard form u~~~
Are you confident?: Sometimes
3 things I was doing 10 years ago:
- Sleep before 11 pm
- Tuition and tuition and tuition….
- Cycle with my buddy
snacks I enjoy:
- Oreo
- McD Sundae Chocolate
- Mcflurry
- Snuker chocolate bar
3 of my bad habits:
- lazy,
- emotional,
- talkative
3 places I have lived in:
- JB….
- Penang…..
- PJ (currently)
5 people I tag:
- Whoever
- Want
- To
- Reply
- !!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, October 3, 2008
WonDerinG
Jz read few blogs of my friends....
Kinda despair to somebody~~~
why the people like to judge the other before they look into the issue??? Are they have no brain?? Or they not really treat other as friend??? For me, as a friend you could actually voice out if you see/percieve something going wrong or worst, but you may not to but please don't saying bad in behind, what the hack you're doing there???
Is kinda hurt and push the friendship to the end....
By the way, i still appreaciate that i have a good brother to care for me and lift a hand to me when i needed... Through the middleman and some channel get known that he might not be so happy lately, but i truly from my heart to greet him well and great!!!
And you, thank for keep tracking my entry ya~~~ but no need to bother bout the grammar and the sentense structure la, it is a hard task... it will make u vomit tons of blood.....
lolx
sorry kinda sad and emo now~~
Kinda despair to somebody~~~
why the people like to judge the other before they look into the issue??? Are they have no brain?? Or they not really treat other as friend??? For me, as a friend you could actually voice out if you see/percieve something going wrong or worst, but you may not to but please don't saying bad in behind, what the hack you're doing there???
Is kinda hurt and push the friendship to the end....
By the way, i still appreaciate that i have a good brother to care for me and lift a hand to me when i needed... Through the middleman and some channel get known that he might not be so happy lately, but i truly from my heart to greet him well and great!!!
And you, thank for keep tracking my entry ya~~~ but no need to bother bout the grammar and the sentense structure la, it is a hard task... it will make u vomit tons of blood.....
lolx
sorry kinda sad and emo now~~
Thursday, October 2, 2008
i hv a D in my exam
The result was released last night~
There is a present for the Hari Raya to me....
Ya, i hv a grade D in my crisis management....
sit for the paper ont? it really a tough question to me.....
Aw~~~ I need help~~~
(financial help)
There is a present for the Hari Raya to me....
Ya, i hv a grade D in my crisis management....
sit for the paper ont? it really a tough question to me.....
Aw~~~ I need help~~~
(financial help)
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