That's a brand new year to you and me

What is the new thing you wanna do, what the new life you wanna be, how do you make the sequence differently?

For me, how torture to me as a late teen without any achievement, how cruel is that everyone getting his/her bliss without part of me?

WE NEED A NEW START

As told, we will be met again in someday, as told we will never been apart with mental, as told the tough will end in someday. As told i believe in you with no condition, as need there is a trust between us...........

That's a blue moon tonight

Yea that is a blue moon that make me here and coping up the mess since been rotting for years, finally it flush and feel refresh again!

A quick brief for myself and you you you maybe you

For the reason not to forget you i was kept for all things and remained it with the last condition and waiting you turn back, put the coconut bracelet on everyday, starred and mused on the ring in every 5th day of the month even though we dint contact each other more than 5 times in a year but the stupid was did almost 2 years.

Within the years, things changed, the lovely one get engaged on her birthday;
I turned to a PA of a feng shui master but uh i still not really believe like your mother do;
With the job i was actually get chances to Kuching, Sibu, KK, Penang, Ipoh, Kedah for explore and also work but still feel sour when i was in the airport that we had argument before;
Besides got a incentive trip to ShenZheng from company and i went but end i still left the company.
Be with Cyrus's couple in Bangkok for 2nd times but fate tell us there will not be third;
Been attended 2 times funeral of my friends feel pain of the accident-ed but angry with the one who suicide then leave us;
Then finally went to Taiwan on your birthday and its how memorable and nice;


How bittersweet that all things happened after the broken promise; thanks for not contact me after that night. 
but do you know after you left, i would like to take car and bring both the starving aunties to eat but the car cant get start and asked help for no response with 2 hours at the car park? Dare not to stay in that particular state with worries that meet u up with the freak face. Feel hard when reminding you the old lady is waiting for your call or text on her birthday. Yet i still lucky, all the black shade had faded, i walkout from the dark and leave you in there, i turned, i live out my new life.

Though, I still a jobless man when i typing this article but happily to say, you're past

注意 ！许多人日夜忙碌不都是要让自己可以存多一些钱吗？可现实社会却将我们的血汗钱给贬值了，即无奈又心酸。

那些努力"花",敢敢"花"納税人的钱,为什么我们不努力"存",敢敢"存"
存在一个既能帮我们扣税,他们又动用不到的储蓄户口呢?

大东方回馈社会之举，在01/06/2011 开放一亿个“ 稳得富 ”单位给我们，让我们可以将财富增值。兴起一股抢购热潮，至今已经成交600个户口，接下来每天有近100宗回成交。所以请大家告诉大家，这个高回酬 + 零风险 + 存五次 + 送保险 + 送信心 + 送安全 + 送安心 的储蓄户口真的过了这个村没有第二家了

+ 记得"了解"花的时间不是"钱" +

联络我。012-7048707 （ Ben ）感恩。

I not mature enough to stand alone at the crossroad

[Scream] I hate U, Benz! Seriously I don't want to be you, HYF anymore!! Can I end the life? [/Scream]

Yup, you're right I was struck in the neck of the bottle and being so emotional right now! You might think am I stupid and feel like scolding to stop me from the act of suicide, but take it easy dude, I just fine. There was how normal that a people bump into dilemma and I was just choose to escape from the reality for a mean while and refuse to do any decision.

The story of the fighting among angel and devil were starting again, but i just be a deaf, not to hear in additional to forget my Ego, shut down my memories, and turn into a total difference people even thought still in the same shell but least can be spare the mind out and no need to think about those complicated relationship that HYF had, those issued that HYF made, those people that HYF knew. Just be a stupid live inside the body and let HYF died for few second or maybe some hours hence nothing much needed a choke up mind or muse over will do.

Yea maybe I'm not mature to stand and fight alone, to face alone, to overcome those difficulties alone, and act like the loser to escape from the reality but I promised will learn, k? There is no one born to know to be tough, all we can do is experience and learn, moreover I still fragile to work on something but a little move may prove I am still brave enough to try and least I was learning. Just give me some time no need to push me to the death way, do us a favour, I can grow myself with your advise but not help, care of me most of the time but not over protect, be nice to me but not mean to be fake with me.

Yea, I am not mature, if compare to others, maybe I am not weak, if compare to others too, but you know what I got improvement and learnt a lot from my past, in short I had growth.Your debate is there I knows, but something is can't denied.

Again, I'm not tried to be immature but I just need some time to muse and figure out what's next for me!

Is just an update of me

{shout out} My Birthday is coming {/shout out}

It was really surprise me that i had been rotten this blog for so long.

Hmm.... there is no other excuse beside saying "i m busy,k?" but i was really being busy couple of time and some variables were just happened in my life some of my habitual had been mess up but least i found the balance point~ Like now, hehe~

Anyway, my birthday is coming soon.... but i have no any feeling regarding this, maybe this year just crash with the big day among the ghost month or it fall on Monday so that i dint plan to have what celebration as its normal working day should everyone back to work.... the day before people wont be so free come out and entertain me....

So i had prepared and get ready to accept no fabulous celebration of this year, and there is my wishes list as below, just leave your comment tell which can you do for me.

1. Home make cake (as long as home make not necessary "self-make" cos i dun like sweet)
2. Buy me a buffet dinner (as long as is buffet, but no junk food buffet k?)
3. Get me a nice shirt/pant/shoes (anything as long as i can wear and it suit to my style)
4. A travel trip (Not necessary oversea, but somewhere new, k?)
5. A giant size of soft toy (cos i want to compete with my sister who got a giant dolphin, but can i have one more request on it, i wan the toy without long fur and it's better fill with cotton)
6. Bring me along when you picking my present, its wont waste your time to figure out what i need and what suit me ………… :P

Sorry for my loneliness and empty... but i really hope this year will be great and different with past~

i like it very much~

闭上眼睛默默许个愿 就像甜甜圈又甜又圆

　　未来是停不下的冒险 却不感觉累

　　是否可以陪伴你们到永远 答案由你们来圈

　　不管答案是不是永远 注定到永远

　　每次遇到考验都想到放弃当初的梦想

　　不过生活起起落落才会感觉不一样

　　用耐心慢慢等待 奇迹才会出现 在 身旁

　　1 2 3 时钟滴答滴答响来实现这梦想

　　U and Me 循着阳光的路线创照最美时光

　　1 2 3 我们一天一天看星光已在发芽

　　U and Me 有你有我的地方幸福就不缺氧

　　U and Me 有你们爱的奇迹幸福就不缺氧

The words i highlighted in BLUE color is the part i like it most. I ensure u all wouldn't face any difficulties while read or try to translate it by your own, thus hereby was the translation by Benzemine's version

"it will always drive us to give up the initial goal or dream when we face the difficulties, but life is just like that to let us to run through, be patient the miracle will be happened around us!"

Well, that's my version might not suitable but who's care? the most important part is that, are u being slum these few days? Do you did fed up with your life? Be tough, be patient the hardness will pass and you will deserve for the goodness

i was being emotional few days ago, and luckily my friend did share the hard task with me although he is drive me to the death wall and i nearly go mad and throw my temper to him and would like give up all my plan and my entire life, yea i am thinking of suicide since i was being so useless in the old days, but now i am being fine and i do believe the 1 who give up 1st he/she will be the one who lose. Hence i knew i have to be patient with not thinking too much, just do whatever i have to do, do whatever part of my job, that's a gift waiting for me to achieved.

KISS

[shout out]Happy Chinese New Year to all Hokkien People[/shout out]

KISS - Keep It Simple Stupid~

No doubt kiss, that is an activity i like most during the time with my lover~ being so alone here since i am single for 5 years and craving for love here~ nevertheless i never ever to forgot the word of KISS since it couldn't be an activity for me and do practice it in my life~~ *Smile* i x mean to kiss everyone when i "see" them~ but just mean to Keep all the thing in the simple and logic way as long as it will be harmless among my friends, relatives and also myself~

so please just KISS me k? dun mess the thing up~